My online name is Sapphire. I'm a programmer, scout, student and friend. 🐺I enjoy meditation, camping, programming, dreaming up new ideas/projects and experiencing this wonderful thing called life. 🐺I'm a currently recovering fapstronaut and 152 days. 🐺Finally, if you know who I am in really life, don't mention this blog. I do my best work when I don't know who's reading.



Hey! Today was an awesome day. I had multiple great things happen, got work on SNAT done along with wanting to talk about GPA and SI sessions.

Alright so first with the few great things that happened:
I got back my Arts 1110 second 1500 word essay and I improved a lot which is really great. Secondly, it was the last Arts 1110 lab and Aliya the lab TA, pulled me aside along with two other people and said because of how hard we’d worked and effort that we’ve shown that I could use her as a reference for Bursaries and Scholarships!

Second thing what that at the SI session for Stat’s, Vienna the SI leader reitterated that I would be a great SI leader and that she’ll put my name to the coordinator. This means that I have a possible job next semester or more likely in next year in University!

Thirdly, today was the last Math lab so that in a just over a week from now I’ll be having a Math test and be finished with school for the first semester.

However, not just great things happened, I had a mental attitude shift that’s really going to help me. You see, I’m going to be asking the Faculty of Science if it would be possible to have a dual major in Computer Science and Chemistry. This is because I’m interested in augmentation, and AI and hoping to connect the two things togeather. So I was for the last couple of days stresssing that I dislike math because of the proofs and other difficult material. Why isn’t there something easier? I’m not going to use this anyway right? I don’t know what came over me but I realized that I had two futures in front of me, one where I shyed away from anything that I really wanted to do, stay on the path expected for me and do what a normal person does and have a partially fulfilling life. The second is to go after what I really want to do which is artificial intelligence and augmentation. My goal is to perhaps have AI running on the human brain providing some sort of internal secondary intelligence or something similar. I’m afraid that people are going to treat me as thought they think I’m crazy. Now that I’m typing this out I couldn’t care less what other people thing of what I do. I’ve always been interested in augmentation, trans-humanism and the possibility of AI and humans running on the same hardware, either the human’s hardware or the computers hardware.

So you know what? I’m going to shoot for my goal, if I fail, at least I will have failed the best possible way. I’m not going to let fear stop me. I didn’t let it stop me today when I did something I was afraid that I wasn’t going to be able to complete in the gym. I’m certainly not going to let it stop me from pursing what I want in life, the type of future that I want.

That felt good to get that out in the open.

To finish up this journal entry I want to talk about someone that I like and admire at school. His name is Wynand and he’s the co president of UMDevClub, I probably spelled his name wrong. Anyway last Saturday as I told you we had a MLH hackathon at the UofM. Wynand didn’t think of himself or try to get his own project done, instead he teamed up with people who had never been to a hackathon or who were just starting out programming. He made sure that they who were new were having fun and feeling like part of a team. That was such a nice and touching and if I see someone who looks alone or unsure of themselves the next time I go to a hackathon,I’m going to plop myself down next to them and make sure that I follow Wynand’s example.

Today I’m at 159 going onto 160 days. Around the 180 mark or perhaps new year!(so in twently days or so, I’ll be posting a really big entry that I’ll be working on every day from tomorrow until 180 to celebrate almost half a year of no porn and a new me!

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